Come November, push is finally going to come to shove here in America. People are going to have to make decisions about which candidate will be the best person to run the United States of America, the world’s economic superpower…(well, that’s what I’ve always heard, but it may not be true). But, seriously, none of that really matters. It just doesn’t. There are real issues people need to figure out-and soon. Democrats and Republicans…who cares? We are all people living on one planet and we need to DSPs (designated smart persons…not my term, but I love it!) to help us figure out what the hell is going on. One of these issues is Iraq. Just mentioning that country puts a bad taste in my mouth…not because I have anything against the culture or the people, but because of the American view on things. Iraq is talked about way too much, but not in the sense it should be. The people are suffering from disease, lack of water and electricity, and just plain chaos. No one seems to realize all of the aspects of the war that affect the people. They are the ones that really suffer. And the worst part of it is is that Americans have spent so much money on this war and most Iraqis just want us to leave! Where did all of our money go? What is going on over there? We need solutions that are culturally sensitive and we need them right now. So many people just need to get over the politics of life and focus on the issues that really matter. Did you know that Iraq is the longest war we’ve been involved in in history? And over 100,000 people are already dead because of it. But at the same time, it is too nieve (sp?) to simply shout, “Stop the war!” We are in too deep now and it’s stupid to point fingers at countries/people. That’s not going to change anything. Obviously, we are going to be in Iraq for a long time. But let’s make the most of the time and money we have to spend and come up with solutions to our problems that will work.

all that said, i went to a lecture last night so that’s where all of this came from…

After a hard look in the mirror, and perhaps more than one cup of coffee, I finally maybe possibly realized something. You can’t judge your life by the people you put in it. Your life is 100% yours. Granted, we all make mistakes….but they happen for a reason. If someone in your life is happy, great. You don’t have to be. And if someone is sad, it isn’t specifically listed in your job description that you be the person to make their rainy day bright. And this whole relationship thing? Not worth it. Really and completely. I’m not in the right place right now. This year started off terribly…with me reaching so far back in the past it hurt. Of course that didn’t work. And that is okay. It’s not supposed to. That was a tough concept to grasp, and one that I guess after last night did not sink into my head yet…(sigh) The point of this whole post, for me is, you have to love yourself before anyone can love you. And that means creating your own opportunities and believing that at the end of the day, your life may not be as complete as it will be in the future, but for now it’s all good. It’s all good. Repeating it like a mantra may bring the concept to life. haha Sometimes I wonder if I am creating the right opportunities. Who knows? I know I can’t go around spending my life thinking about the what ifs. I’ve been moved past that stage for a while now and it’s most certainly too late to go back. So for now, I will keep writing and dreaming, playing and believing and know that someday, somehow I will keep remembering to look at the colors and forget all the grey.